Pre-40th Birthday
They say life begins at 40....so what is it that end at 39? Was I not living the 14599 days I spent on this earth before my 40th birthday?
By the dawn of that day I had lost both my parents, each quite suddenly and one without any warning, I had lost the love of my life (or so I had thought at the time). All this had happened over the years but I was (I am still) mourning these losses. The silver lining from such experience did awaken in my a sense of calm - I had survived hence I can handle. I am not challenging the Creator of the Universe and all life forms, I do not need Her to test me in more ways, but I had survived and that means I can pick up my own pieces and repair myself.
40th Birthday
So while I wanted go stay curled up in bed and not celebrate the addition of this decade I decided to have the most fun with the people I loved and of course the foods that we all enjoy. I was going to enter the new decade with a new me. With a maturity in mind that I had not felt till the night before, with the confidence that I have earned the fine lines on my face and the silver appearing in my hair. I was all set to reach new horizons and achieve goals that didn't exist the night before. 5th of September only brought on a massive hangover and indigestion that also comes with advancing years as the body sends the memo "I am not as young need to repair"
Post 40th Birthday (the next several years till now)
With the realization that as the intellectual mind and the emotional heart matures into something beautiful, the muscles blood and bone part starts to deteriorate. Physical fitness and nutrition becomes essential, abusing the body is not an option anymore. That started the journey of steady healthier choices. I wanted to reconnect with friends who are family without the blood connection across the pond, made the extra effort to see them. That lead to finally meeting the real and true love of my life. More about that in another blog. This one is about me and the changes that just happened because I ALLOWED THEM.
While there are destined events that I can not control I also know many events were the result of my incorrect choices. This time I decided to listen to what the universe was saying. I found what makes me more happy than what I had thought in those 14599 days. The main thing not to allow ego to prevail, embrace genuine friendships and eliminate the toxic. Following these three steps I felt like a Phoenix being reborn from the ashes. My flight has soared since then.
Now I know things will happen as they are meant to and I will he ready to make the choices needed at the time.
More later.
